i let you call me beautifulbecause i know you mean beautifulnaked faced, unshowered, raspybecause you mean raw, pen in fist, screamingbecause you mean lustful, razor-tonguedi let you call me beautifulbecause you’ve traced the scoliosis snake of my spinekissed the stretch marks under each breaststroked the lines around my eyesbeacuse these are my grandmother’s eyelidsmy father’s lipsmy great-great grandfather’s cheekbonesbut i’ve fed this face sunburn and city aircalloused the eyesand let the brows grow infor the sake of the veins that river my wristsfor the sake of the prolapsed valve in my heartfor the sake of the scars marking my gall-bladder absentfor the sake of the rasp and rattle of my functioning lungsfor the sake of the pre-arthritic ache of my elbowsand anklesfor the sake of the life-line sectioning my palmfor the sake of the photographic pads of my fingertipsfor the sake of the vulnerable dip at the base of my throatfor the sake of the muscles surfacing on my abdomenfor the sake of these arms that carry babiesand anthologiesfor the sake of the leg hairs that sprout and are shavedfor the sake of the ass that refuses to shrink or be hiddenfor the sake of the place that bleeds and acceptsbleeds and acceptsfor the sake of the prominent ridge of my nosefor the sake of the strange convexity of my ribcagefor the sake of the single hair that insists on growing from my right ariolafor the sake of the dent where the mole was clipped from the back of my neckfor the sake of these inner thighs brushingfor the sake of these eyelashes that sometimes turn inwardfor the sake of these hips preparing to spread into my grandmother’s skirtfor the sake of the beauty of the freckle on the first knuckle of my left little fingercall me beautifulkidnap the word from perfume bottles and magazine coversthe way i stole back this body from the airbrushed delusions i knelt to in dormitory bathroomsswear beauty means sex with the lights onmeans caressing imperfections because this beauty is humanand human is flawstanding naked before the full lengthi smooth lotion into new celluliteand old scarsclose my eyes to picture my kneesmy navelmy foreheadan architect reconstructing the house she grew up ini believe in this bodylike i believe in the beauty of plaidthe blonde swirl on the back of my six month old cousin’s headthe untouched drape of snow across my windowsillthe wedding ring on my grandmother’s widowed handthe way beauty is the color of joy after sufferingthe quick intake of breath beforeyes!the way fury is beautifuland orgasm beautifulthe terror of headlights as you spin out on the icesearing solitude beautycall me beautifuli’ll burn both of usdownto bone
— Marty McConnell, I Let You Call Me Beautiful
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